I don’t wanna feel like this on the first day of a new year. Yes it marks a new beginning, a new start. But I’m scared. Anticipation is an overstatement. I just feel that I’m too much a pessimist. Life have taught me realism and I am not fully prepared for these transition.
Adulthood means greater responsibility, stronger attitude, better emotional control and adult fares.
Enlistment of boyfriend means more independence, more understanding, more patience and more tolerance.
My As result determines successful admission to university or not.
It is when my fullest optimism comes in if I didn’t make it. Need to pluck some courage to tell myself that it’s not the end and there’s so much alternatives.
But these alternatives are not perfect substitutes for university. Not even close. So live in denial and just gotta work even harder to succeed.
Need to not feel embarrassed or ashamed for taking a longer path to sucess.
Then there’s new environment and new friends. New challenges. Job politics. Adaptive mechanism must be all time ready.
Must not forget old friends. Gonna spend more time this year to meet up with more friends. Need to catch up like crazy.
Need to face life with an open mind and broader heart.
Need to realize love is not only taking but giving. Applies to mummy, daddy, brother, boyfriend, friends.
Make more effort to help mummy in housechores. Learn to be a woman.
Keep healthy and fit. Lose weight.
Better self-management in all aspects.
Need to not overlook small things in life and appreciate.
Take love to greater level. Not just love but friendship and kinship and team spirit.
Take criticism objectively as it is an option to be miserable
Need to stop worrying and overthink. “Just do it” mentality because life is too short for hesitation. Need to stop waiting for things to happen but make things happen.
Happiness is found within. Be happy as life still move on if you are sad.
Have fun and live life to fullest.
Have you realized that there’s a change of tone after the first five bullets? Called Nick when I’m at the fifth bullets. Told him exactly how I’m feeling about this year. Yes tears because of fear. But he managed to knock in some senses in me. And he assured me that he will always be with me to face all kinds of shits.
Me: Thanks for this HTHT.
Him: Thanks for making me your HTHT buddy.
I am so happy because I’m in love with this amazing guy that makes me feel like the luckiest girl ever and I can’t thank god more for him.
This post serves as a reminder on what and how to face 2012. Yes new year resolution. At least I don’t fear 2012 now. I will be brave.
